Hey guysšš¾šš¾šš¾,
I know it's been like 10 years since I have last posted but I'm back!!
Lol, where have I been?
That last time that I posted was on Valentine's Day... yikess lolš¬. (I honestly haven't been feeling this blog and I feel a revamp coming soon.) I'm so sorry to the one person that actually reads these postsšš but I'm back forreal this time (hopefully). Since the year is ending and I'm feeling all reflective, I thought I'd tell y'all a little about how this year went and I guess update y'all on my goals I had at the beginning of the year.
So, about those goals lol, I won't lie... I don't think I achieved any of them, but you know what, that's ok because I still accomplished a lot this year. I think that this was a pretty trying year for me, especially the second half. The year started off pretty ok and I actually think I enjoyed it (but I don't really remember... you know what they say about depression and memory loss š). This past fall semester, however *whew* I'm even surprised that I made it out. When I tell y'all I was struggling, like I just... idek what to say at this point. But, it's over (for the most part) and I'm still alive, so I'm going to take what I learned and do better in the new year. I won't actually share my goals for 2020, but I will say that therapy is one thing that I really need to get into and I think that everyone should.
Things I realized this year
I am not the biggest fan of holidays (or maybe I was just really sad this year). Well, I mostly mean my birthday. This year, I completely tried to disregard the fact that it was my birthday this year (minus all the people reminding me about lol) but now I keep thinking that I'm still 19 lol. I think I am going to go more in depth about this in a whole separate blog post.
There are like no unproblematic people in this world, which is kind of annoying. People keep doing things that makes me not want to support them. However, I do believe that there is a spectrum of problematicness (is this a word lol?)
It's basically impossible to change the way that your parents think. I kind of always knew this, but I think it may be time to just accept this.
School takes a really negative toll on my mental health, which I been knew, but it's really not ok.
I don't think I really trust people, but I also overshare so idk what this says about me.
Therapist fit is so important.
I really want to live by the quote, "Be who you needed when you were younger" (idk who it's by though)
People are not nice, or they don't have as much kindness in their hearts as they claim to. Lowkey, this may be the same for me, but I'm trying to work on it.
Life is really short, even though it feels pretty long.
I talk a lot and I also feel the need to over-explain myself. Or maybe, I don't talk a lot.
Writing a book is hard, like really hard.
I hope you guys are happy that I'm back. It feels good to be back :) Expect a new post, every weekend, starting today! I am speaking consistency and growth for everyone reading this into 2020.
(A quote to live by and my quote for the new yearš)
Love,
Gš
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